What the fuck

What the fuck is going through my mind? I literally have NO IDEA WHO THE FUCK I AM! If anyone wants to help a poor soul get through to anything, please do. I don't know who I am and I want YOU (yes you) to help me.

Please.

Nostalgia

I miss the good old days. The days when I would be texting her about 50 times a day. The days when we would video chat and not say a single word because the blushing speaks loud enough. The days when we would go for long walks and talk about everything from school, to camp, to mistakes we made that we aren't really sure they were mistakes. I want her back, not as a girlfriend, but as a teacher, a listener, and a friend. I want to love her as a best friend. I want to see movies with her and hold hands because we are just that close. I want to be that close. She is an angel in the form of a friend...a BEST friend. I hope she wants to be that close, too. I have been wrong about her feelings before. I hope this time, it is different.

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WHY WON'T I GIVE UP?

I look myself in the mirror

And ask myself

Why am I crying so hard?

I feel like I'm gonna break

From wanting so bad

What I can't have.

She sees my smiles

But not the tears

That are stained on my face

From knowing that I can't

Have her.

I feel like a peasant

Wanting just a smile

From the beautiful Angel

That dropped down from heaven.

I offer her the world

She has the universe.

We're so close

Yet so far away.

She is out of my league

We both know it

But she tries to be nice

"You have a chance"

'Get real'

I tell myself

'She will NEVER go out with you'

I always end up

With the same damn question;

WHY WON'T I GIVE UP?

New Years

Today was New Years. I did not get a kiss.